Change. It’s a bit of a scary word, isn’t it? It gets us uncomfortable, to get out of our comfort zone. It gets us excited, to experience something new. I have learned during my years of work that change management is one of the most challenging and important things to grasp. Because after all, change is a mindset and not something you can just apply with an on and off switch. Change outside the work environment, however, is something else all together. When it affects your personal life and your emotions, your outlook on change is instantly different.
When I found out I was pregnant with my second child, my husband Chris and I were overcome with joy. We were thrilled to grow our little family of three to a family of four. More importantly, we were overcome with joy because we would be giving our first born Andrea a little sister. I have always had a strong bond with my sister Jessica, and I had always wished that I would have two girls that would share the ups and downs of sisterhood.
Love 1, 2 and 3 in a photo
Once the honeymoon phase of the pregnancy was over and reality hit us, things started to literally change. Well, I certainly did not change only physically, but mentally and emotionally as well. It is a beautiful transformation, but one that many women struggle with. I was tired, irritable, exhausted most of the day and feeling very sick. I knew deep down that it would be all worth it once the baby would make its entrance, but it did seem like it was so far away at the time. Andrea and work kept me busy. We were also preparing for our move to a new home. The extra guest room we had free was going to be the nursery.
I designed it with white furniture and a bold leopard-inspired wallpaper. I used Andrea’s crib and day bed and added a couple of new pieces from our furniture line. When it all came together I prepared some white picture frames and kept wondering how our family photos would look in them after the baby’s arrival. How would I be as a mom of two? Would I be able to love our second one as much as our first? How would she compare to our little star Andrea? There were admittedly many moments of self doubt and numerous questions I did not have the answer to.
On March 16, Arielle Josephine made her entrance. She was the perfect little addition to our family. The whole experience was just as incredible as I remember with my first born Andrea and my heart doubled in size. The sleepless nights were worth every minute I held her in my arms. We felt complete.
Welcoming Arielle Josephine
It has been over 8 months since then and I am still adjusting as it has been a balancing act -- juggling work responsibilities, and motherhood is no joke! Some days I feel like a confident supermom, while other days I still question myself and think I am not doing enough. This 2017 has been a blessed and a truly amazing year for me and my family. So, even during the more challenging days, I think of the big picture and remain grateful. A year of change, a year of learning, growth and, more importantly, falling in love all over again.
Climbing Lion’s head Cape Town not knowing I was pregnant
Feeling so sick and nauseous but trying to smile as I treasure beach weekends with these two
Moving out from our first home... it was certainly bittersweet as we shared many special memories here
Andrea settled in her new room- furniture by little Philux of course
Our last snowy holiday as a family of three
Pregnancy portrait by BJ Pascual
Unconditional love for these two
Our first portrait as a family of four
Welcoming my sister’s son and my godson Jesse Luca
With the new babies of the family - Luca and Arielle
Grateful for my loves... happy holidays!